Infertile Blog

I just found this amazing site called helpusadopt.org, it is an organization that helps families adopt when the price of adoption in the states is 30,000+. This is a blog one of the co-founders expresses her trials and tribulations on adoption in her family. It is very funny and heartfelt, I have laughed and cried reading some of the posts.

Here is one I just love... cause I can relate and also think this way everyday.

http://www.aninfertileblonde.com

Do you ever wonder if there will be a baby on your doorstep when you open your door one morning?

Do you ever wonder what would happen if you found a child abandoned in the subway station?

Do you ever wonder what would happen if a birthmother were to just fall into your lap?

Do you ever wonder what you would do if adoption didn’t cost $30,000+?

Do you ever wonder?

I do.

Almost every day of my life.

Love much,

xob

Adoption is the New Pregnant...

I have experienced a lot of pain with finding out I cannot have kids. But today some news hurt a little more then usual. I am so grateful to have adoption in my life that I can still be a mother. Now we have been on the list for 4 months now and the wait seems to be going smoothly. Everyone around me always says it will happen when it is suppose too. I believe that. 

But when, we have been on the list for 4 months. But I have been waiting to hold my little one for going on 4 years. When is it my turn. I don't see myself as a selfish person but I want it to be my turn. I see all my friends, family and others getting pregnant and basking in the joy of their baby. Don't get me wrong I am very happy for them, and then sad for me. It is a small reminder that we are waiting with no end in sight.

Please do not take this as me complaining, I am happy to be where I am, with what I have, It is my plea to who ever is listening to hurry up already, we are ready!!!

Congratulations to all the new babies coming into this world in 2013.

Lauren

2013 is the year it all happens

Happy New Year!  And what a year it is going to be.  As Lauren and I look forward to 2013, we know in our hearts that this is the year we are able to meet our new child and the new birth mother who is brave enough to go through this process and meet us.  Our anticipation is spilling over at this point, because there isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about the baby that is going to come into our lives.  However we know because of our experiences last year that we need to stay focused on our lives right now, keep positive and try to live each day without looking too far ahead otherwise we can get lost in these emotions and forget about what is happening right in front of us at this present time.

Questions always race through our mind about the process that is soon to begin.  But we have chosen to not check in with the adoption agency to find out where we are on the list.  Have we moved up 5 spots?  Only 2?  Have we not moved at all?  Has our file been viewed by any birth mothers?  These are questions that we want to know, and don't want to know because in this case sometimes the less we know is better for us.  Lauren and I know this will all happen when it is supposed to happen, and that our phone will ring that day with the news we want to hear.

I tend to find myself answering every phone call now on my cell or the landline even if it looks like a telemarketer or a wrong number because you never know.  So you can imagine how extra-aggravated I get when it actually IS someone trying to sell me something!  ;)  As much as we try not to think about it, that phone call we are waiting for has been playing over in my head enough times that it is almost like a dream.  

Looking back on 2012 it was a year of immense hardships, challenges, and lessons which tested us, making us stronger as people, and also as a couple.  But as is life, so many positives are coming out of a year we saw so difficult.  New friendships, new understanding and love of each other, new-found confidence in ourselves as future parents, and new strength from people who influenced our lives for the better in 2012. 

This year we are both going to make the effort to try and only surround ourselves with the people and places that make us happy.  Continuing to build a loving life and home that awaits a special little person.  

So 2013.. I am so happy you are here!   #joy  <3

- Jason